I split with my gf for the third time. This time for good. It's the right thing to do but it's not easy. She's got borderline personality disorder and while that explains a lot of what she does, I can't deal with it. Also she won't take any responsibility for changing things, she wanted someone else to do it for her. She's held knives to her arms in front of me saying that if I leave the flat she'll cut. She took what was meant as a fatal OD when I was in the bed next to her. She's a master of manipulation. It was too much... So moved back into my old flat which is hard... Had to make it habitable by cleaning, getting food in etc etc. Also my now ex isn't giving me peace. She'll seem so reasonable but if I answer email or text or whatever it just gives her a foot hold to begin tearing down my defenses again. And it's meant i have mutual friends who are now not wanting much to do with me for the sole reason it'll upset my ex with her black and white, all good or alllbad thinking.
Its written by my ex, I'm a BAD person. I apologised for all these things. I suck
EDITTED In my efense I deleted her number a week after we split to avoid hounding her and I can count on one hand how many times I've emailed her. This is major progress from what I was like with my last ex. I feel over her but I don't like what she's sharing with other ppl about my stupid BPD moments and the OD its private, I'm the only one who should be allowed to tell people about that.
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